Momma Appreciation Day

My son decided that we needed to have a Momma appreciation day. I asked him what a Momma appreciation day was and he said its just like mothers day except its this Saturday and we aren't inviting Granny.
We went for Chinese food and went to watch Despicable Me. It was an awesome movie, and we had a great time.

I just had my first experience fearing an open space yesterday. I was shopping with a friend. We started at the shops closest to where we had parked and walked along the sidewalk going in and out of shops. By the time we had made it to the end she was worried about me being too tired or in too much pain to walk back to the car. She offered to drive back and pick me up. I declined. So she decided that since the shortest distance to the car was to walk straight through the parking lot that would be the best option for me. We made it maybe 20 feet off the sidewalk and I completely froze. She asked if I was in pain and I said "No, I'm totally freaking out and I can't move" She offered to hold my hand but I told her I HAD to get back to the sidewalk. Once I was there I was fine. No more pain, stiffness or anxiety. It was so weird. I've talked to some others with SPS and that said that kind of anxiety or fear is very common with SPS. One even said she had fears of going new places. I told her I had a fear of driving on curvy or hilly roads because I couldn't trust that the road continued beyond where I could see. The jury is still on on if that is an actual SPS symptom or if its just regular crazy.

Tomorrow is another big day. Chad is out of town so while little man is at the movies with one of his friends I am going to attempt to clean the house. Wish me luck!

Grocery Day

I woke up around 10:00 this morning and by 11:30 I needed a nap. After a 3 hour nap I packed up the family and we made the 45 minute drive to get groceries. Buying the organic groceries is getting a little easier, I'm starting to recognize some of the packages and I know which stores I need to go to, to get certain items. I do wish however that there were a store that only sold organic items and had everything I wanted. Oh and was less than 45 minutes away. I can dream right. Today I was highly dissappointed that there was no organic cottage cheese.

My energy levels have really been fluctuating. Today I needed a nap a few hours after I woke up and again on the way home from getting groceries I was hit with this wave of extreme fatigue. As I was working on putting away the food and cleaning up the kitchen I got progressively more and more tired. At one point while I was making our supper I looked at Chad and told him my whole body was shaking and I wanted to cry. He told me to go sit down and not worry about the food but I was determined to finish. I feel a little better since I have had something to eat. When I got up to take my plate to the sink I wasn't able to lift my feet from the floor. I had to make tiny little shuffles and scoots. I'm in my chair resting now and hopefully I will feel better tomorrow. Tuesdays after a holiday are extra tough its like having two Mondays at once.

4th of July

I had a great 4th of July. We went to my Mom's house and had lunch. Yummy coca-cola cake. It was soooooo good. My sister cut way too big of a piece for me but it was so good I just had to eat it all. Of course I really shouldn't eat that much sugar. After most everyone had left I snuck off and took a nap. Then my son found me so I moved to the living room to watch Star Wars with everyone else. I just curled up and slept on the couch. I had to save up my energy for fireworks!

Fireworks were AWESOME! We spared no expense. We went to Chad's parents house, they live further out of town. One of the boxes (I believe the technical term is cake) flipped over. One shot went out towards the woods and we laughed. Then the box flipped again and it shot towards the road, we laughed. Then the box flipped and shot back towards the house. It hit the side of the house and bounced backwards, another one zipped by and hit one of our trucks. You've never seen a group of people scatter faster.

We've all decided that we are going back tomorrow and buy some more on sale. Woo Hoo!

I wanted to give an update to my last post. I have uped my dose of diazepam as I was supposed to. I am now up to 2 miligrams 2 times a day. I'm not any more tired than I was before. I'm doing well at work and I'm completely off the Dr. Pepper (YAY) I did start my organic diet. It's not as expensive as I thought it would be but its really hard having to drive 45 minutes into Nashville to buy it. I've been really pushing on Chad to buy me an upright freezer so I can buy more groceries at once. Organic groceries don't last long. :o(

Things have been going pretty well. Organic food and lots of water have actually been making me feel better. I'm still really tired. In fact I slept most of today.